Day Four – A New Attitude

All things considered, I’m feeling pretty good.

I’m not craving anything anymore, which is a big plus.

Day 1 and 2 were quite bad for headaches and cravings, but I think I’ve come out the other side now.

My legs are still sore, I think maybe I need to get my hands on some calcium supplements, so it’ll be a trip to the pharmacy for me at lunch time. I was on a magnesium supplement, so it must be a calcium thing.

Today I feel good. I feel awake, and I have energy, and when I’m listening to my music on the bus I wish the bus was empty so that I can dance like no one is looking. Because that’s what I like to do.

I did it last night. I did my half an hour on the cross trainer, then did some push ups and sit ups, and decided I still wasn’t done, so I danced to some music.

And why not!

The one thing I am struggling with is Alcohol.

Going through this kind of process with either make you go T-Total, or, when the process is finished, you end up hitting booze quite hard and undoing all your hard work.

I can drink red wine, but only one or two glasses a week. I do like my red wine, but for a good red wine you need to be prepared to spend a bit of money.

I confess that prior to the detox, I liked, well, still like, my drink. I think on average we’d go through 3 litres of wine and a bottle of spirits a week between two of us. Not good really, but because it’s something we’re used to, we just stick to the routine. However, not that my body is feeling lighter and brighter and healthy, I’m not sure I want to go back there. I’m sure that I will drink again, but I don’t think I’ll be drinking very often, or much. My partner will be disappointed… but he’ll get over it I’m sure.

I also don’t miss the sweet stuff, and that I will be staying off. I’m not missing the cakes or muffins or chocolate or biscuits, so I don’t think I’ll be having much of those anymore!

It would seem that I’ve finally found something that will work for me. My mother criticised it for being a bit extreme, but I’ve struggled on my own in the past. I needed to go to someone to help me and get me on the right track, and she’s done that. One my brain and my body have been retrained to know what it needs, rather than what it wants, and I remain in control, I think the new me will thrive.